To My Readers,
I have been a bad blogger. I have sugar coated myself and altered my own writing style, and occasionally my content, simply to attract more readers and pageviews in hopes to get myself and my blog more "out there." And while my tactics may have worked a bit, growing my followers and such exponentially, they were low brow tactics and I'm rather ashamed to have taken part in them. So starting today, shit's getting real over here. I'm doing a massive overhaul on my blog, and the way I do things here are going to seriously change. The point of this post is to let you know what will be changing here and my reasons for changing said things. I hope none of you take this too personally, I'm not trying to attack anyone, but I'm so done with this fake ass bull shit. And yeah, this is how I talk in real life, so you might want to get used to it.
The first thing that a lot of you are going to notice is the change in my writing style. I'm not the sugar sweet politically correct person that I have been portraying for the past few months. I tend to be rather brutally honest and I do use harsh language on the regular. I was not raised in such a way that I am all love and hugs for everyone, and because so many bbloggers tend to be all about the love I've been throwing around a lot of x's and o's in an attempt to fit in. And let's be real, I'm 25 and most of my regular readers are in Europe, the fact that I care so much about what people think of me here is pretty pathetic, I mean it's not like if I piss you off you're going to come over to the US and kick my ass. Granted, there are some of you that read this blog that I do actually try and communicate with on the reg because I genuinely enjoy hearing from you, like Egle over at Makeup Demon (she's awesome, btw) and I'm not phony or anything with you guys, I really like you and your blogs. But I am going to be writing more like I speak, so you should expect less huggy-kissy Disney princess stuff, and more PG-13 content because seriously, if you're under 13 you shouldn't be sitting around reading makeup blogs you should be outside playing. I'm done censoring myself and if you don't like it, don't follow me.
Another thing that I've fallen into is blog hopping. I'm not saying that I hate blog hops, because I don't. I've found some awesome writers through the hops and I've gained some great followers from them. It's really a great way to promote yourself. However, I'm done with this follow me and I'll follow you bull shit. I don't want a bunch of fake followers that give no shits about what I'm writing, and I don't want to be following a bunch of people who write about things that I'm just not that interested in. It defeats the purpose of blogging for me. I have been doing this follow for a follow thing for a while, and now I have so much stuff in my feed that it's genuinely difficult for me to pick through and find posts that I actually want to read. So after I'm done with this post, I will be going through and unsubscribing to the blogs that don't really interest me. And if you are only following me because I'm following you, feel free to unsubscribe, I won't get all butt hurt over it. I know that it's my fault that my shit's all cluttered over here, I just got so excited when I started gaining mass followers that I didn't realize how counter productive my methods were for gaining said followers. So if you leave a comment and you want me to check out your blog, go ahead and leave your URL, I'll check it out and IF it's something that I'm interested in I'll follow. If it isn't my thing though, I'm not following. Sorry, but this shit is getting ridiculous.
And now for those of you who are still reading and not running to unsubscribe, this is who I am for real. I'm 25 years old, my real name is Danielle, and I hail from the USA. I'm a generally cynical bitch who spends most of my time hanging out with my family, blogging, and watching trashy tv while drinking coffee and chain smoking. I have very little direction in my life because I just don't see the point in most things and still have no idea what I want to do with my life. In effort to please my family and fit in with others in my age group I have thrown myself into many different things to "better myself." I have started and then dropped out of beauty school twice now because many members of my family think I should do something more with my life. This led to me starting and then dropping out of college 3 times. Yeah, I know, it's a sick sad existence. At this point in my life I am so confused as to what I want and what I have been pressured into liking by my family that I'm scared to do much of anything because either I will be miserable or my family will scorn me. This blog is the only thing that I have that is mine and mine alone, and even that I managed to sully with the expectations of others. And I just can't take it anymore. I'm done living for other people and doing things simply to please those around me, because if I don't start living for myself I'm going to lose my mind. So this is who I am; I'm confused with myself, I have no real direction, and no follow through. The only things that I know for certain are that I love playing with makeup, I love performing and listening to music, I love creating things, I love my little family, and that I just want to be happy with my life.
To those of you who continue to follow my blog after this point, thanks for sticking around and I'm sorry for all the bull shit. I'm going to do my part to be real here, and when you leave a comment I encourage you to do the same. If you don't like what I have to say, tell me. This is my space on the web, and I appreciate and encourage complete and total honesty. Don't worry about hurting my feelings or being *gasp* a little offensive, I'm a big girl and I can take it. And just so you know, this is a beauty blog so most of what I write and share here will be beauty related, but I'm going to be including more non beauty related posts as well. So please, help me keep shit real here, because I am so over fake people, myself included. I'm quite interested to see who actually sticks around, and I can't wait to get more involved with those of you that do. Til next time!